New site for 2016!

Yay! Hurrah! It’s 2016 and I have decided to do a mommy blog! 🙂

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Since I have quit my job, given birth, and have been a stay at home mom, for the past 4 months or so… I thought hey, why not?!

This motherhood is some tough shit! Seriously! I thought my days were busy when I was a normal, working, functioning adult… But Oh no! Parenthood, becoming a mother, has molded me into a legit adult.

I’ll still pop in and out here… But I will be mainly be at Memoirs of a Mother, trying to balance Mommyhood and a baby!

Check me out here at: Memoirs of a Mother.com

 

 

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Updates!

So once in a blue moon I feel the need to update this blog 🙂

First off, I get bored with my hair and feel the need to chop it off. Plus, I wanted to donate my hair again, since the first time went so well.

shorthairThen my husband and I finally went on our honeymoon! We had been planning it for the past year. We took a trip to Greece in the beginning of the year, January. We went during their winter season and it was great, since there weren’t any tourists at all!

We visited Athens:

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Crete:

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and Santorini:

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Then when we arrived back I had my yearly physical and found out… *dun dun dun* that I was pregnant!

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On September 2015, I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl, Cecilia! ❤

ceciliabirthSo, I decided to quit my job and be stay at home mom for a while. The past 2 months of being a mother has been a life changing experience. It’s a struggle some days, with the crying, constant diaper changes, adjusting to staying at home with a baby… but its ALL worth it when I see her smile and when her lovely brown eyes stare into mine 🙂

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My Unborn Baby

I killed my unborn baby.

In a dream that transformed into a nightmare.

He laid upon my arms as I cradled his tiny, fragile body.

His head rested upon my chest.

His cheeks softly pressed against my skin.

Our bodies, were connected as one.

I rocked him ever so gently.

He awakened, suddenly rustling in my arms

                                                                  diaper full and dirty.

I stood up carrying him to a narrow, never ending hallway that was

                                                                             our destination.

He weighed nothing.

                    As he shrunk unknowingly before my eyes.

I found him inside  his over sized diaper.

Drowned and already dead.

His head grotesquely covered in yellow and brown creamy disgusting chunks.

                                                                       My heart fell silent.

                     I sensed his breaths gone.

I pressed my lips against his

                                                        over                   and                   over             again.

I tried to exhale my oxygen into him.

I didn’t want to give up

                                   but I stopped.

I stood there right by him

                                  time seemed infinitely far.

There was nothing that mattered anymore.

I felt                        heavy,                sick,                          lost,                                  weak.

I wanted to scream but

                                                                    I woke up.